It’s 6 a.m. I hear my 2 year-old fuss and not long after her twin sister cries out. I am exhausted. I tell them to stay in bed and then I shut my door in an attempt to muffle their whines. I desperately try to grab a few more precious minutes of sleep before my other kids wake up. It’s useless.
7:00 comes all to soon and I force myself up to start the day. I am irritable. I am discouraged. We have breakfast and get dressed and start our schoolwork and the day carries on, but my energy level falls with each passing moment it seems. I try a coffee. I try eating. Nothing. I am drained.
The afternoon entertains more activity and, come supper, I wonder how I will make it to the kids’ bedtime. When food is thrown, I break. When kids get coated in the dirt from head to toe, I lose my temper. And when kids are all tucked into bed, I cry.
Through tears I confess to my husband that I was a horrible mother at times today. Once I gather my thoughts, I go downstairs feeling defeated. I ask my children to forgive me and we pray together.
Matthew 11:28-30 reads, “Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
We WILL find rest in Jesus. We need to learn from Him as the verse reads; a man who was and is faithful, holy, merciful, forgiving, slow to anger. A man who is caring, trustworthy and loving. He was “gentle and lowly in heart.” Jesus was humble, putting others before himself. He had a servant’s heart. Do I model Christ to my children? Did I model Christ to my children today?
Mothers, we will be exhausted. And that is alright. Some days we will want to ignore responsibilities and face the situations we are in with terrible attitudes, but that is not alright. We need to model Christ to our children. We need to share the love of Christ with our children and, to do this, we need to come to Christ. Tired though we may be, we need to pour into God’s word and into prayer. God WILL give us rest. Sometimes we need help from others. Some days we need a few quiet moments to ourselves. Some days we need a nap or an early bedtime. But no day should we be short with our children and model behaviour that does not honour God. Will these days happen? Yes. Will we make mistakes? Yes. But I am so thankful that there is “no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Day by day we are being conformed to His image and less and less we should see these sins.
Tomorrow is a new day. When it’s 6 a.m. and I hear my twins fuss, I pray I will be joyful. I pray I will greet my children with a smile and a hug and let them know they are loved. I pray I will pray for energy and strength and for an attitude that honours my Lord and Saviour. I pray I will ask for help if I need it, and that I will not lose my temper. If I do, I pray I will ask for forgiveness from God and my children. And I pray that the fruits of the Spirit will be evidenced in my life.
Here I sit at 11:00 at night after a non-stop day, with my Bible opened beside me, being strengthened by the promises of God. And for the first time today, I have energy. Praise God.